Oh sweet lady, I needed today’s triumph! Our biggest step together yet was the absolute highlight of my day. I snuck away from work early with less than an hour’s worth of daylight left but I wasn’t going to waste it! I was lucky that it was close enough to dinner time, so when I […]
It feels extremely odd and almost wrong to be calm and satisfied, but that’s how I found myself this afternoon. I’d just put in a solid morning’s effort for a major work project, more or less successfully herded Kade through another remote school day, and played a rousing game of Scrabble after a walk in […]
When I’m not buried in work or delighting in visiting Tarma every night, there’s an ongoing struggle I keep going back to. We’re still healing from loosing Cyrus (a process that never really ends), and slowly shifting towards maybe being ready to find our next dog. However, Cyrus set such a ridiculously high bar, even […]
I’m always a bit too slow (read: distractible) to do proper year end round ups, and I’ve been dragging my feet more so than usual for this rabid wolverine on shrooms year. But I’m stealing this from Starlight Lane Farm’s blog, someone I’ve been following and appreciating for years. What’s the best thing that happened […]
I’m a few days late in posting this, as it’s been an extraordinarily rough week at the tail end of a dumpster fire year. Cyrus passed away unexpectedly last week and not a day goes by I’m not crying, feeling like I’ve lost a limb. Cyrus was a Very Good Dog, and missing him so […]
First off, Fuck 2020. Can’t say it any more forcefully than that. I’m writing this from my friend’s house where I’m temporarily boarding my new horse, while the three kids are doing schoolwork and three adults are on work calls. Secondly, I really, deeply appreciate everyone’s heartfelt comments and thoughts. Seeing point one, I know […]
I thought the post I wrote after Flash died so unexpectedly was the hardest one I would write this year. Fuck that, said 2020. Today is the hardest, weirdest day I’ve ever had. I left home early this morning, after checking on Cyrus and confirming my husband knew how to care for him for the […]
This post is pretty heavy, so if you’re in a fragile space yourself right now, I do recommend skipping it. Here’s some pretty pictures to bury the lead….. I know shouting “THIS YEAR FUCKING SUCKS” is nothing new for literally everyone on the planet, but my brain is basically screaming that all the time now, […]
I’ve been quietly conducting a new partner search while juggling as much overtime at work as I can, so all thanks to the organizational abilities of Excel. For some it might seem like too short a time, but we all grieve differently and horses are a huge part of me. To not have one to […]
Flash hasn’t even been gone a month and already my stress levels are spiking and my coping mechanisms have stagnated. I didn’t quite realize how essential daily barn time was to my psyche until I had it ripped away, even though I’d had only just over a year of daily horse kisses and slobber. Between […]